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Back in 2009, I decided I needed to lose weight. Not 100% due to vanity but about 90% due to fear of dying and 10% vanity. Let’s face it anyone who says they aren’t doing it for vanity is probably not 100% be honest. I have a family history of diabetes and heart disease which I 100% believe it was due to our family history of obesity. I get there are family genetic but the other common connection was obesity. With my dad having his first heart attack in his very early 50’s and as I approached 48, I knew deep down I needed to get healthy. Moving forward into 2010, I would say I was at my prime, lost a significant amount of weight and in the best physical shape. But someone forgot to tell me how hard maintaining a healthy weight is so hard!!
I struggle daily to not revert back my previous weight on the right hand in the pictures below. Obesity is a chronic disease, WAIT!!! WHAT??!! There is a lot of controversy around if obesity should or shouldn’t be classified as a disease. I am not here to support either side or give you my personal view. I am here to tell you that it’s hard! Being obese is hard, weight loss hard and maintaining is even harder!
Mid 2017, suddenly everything I did to maintain my weight loss stopped working! How can I work out 4 to 5 times a week and gain weight? How can I train for two half marathons and gain weight? How can I only eat 1200 calories and gain weight? How can I only eat more calories as instructed and gain weight? What the heck is going on here! Before I knew it, I had packed on 20 pounds. I was in tears. I was devastated. I worked so hard to not head in this direction. I didn’t overeat, I worked out religiously, I did everything right!!!
I had to reflect on what was happening during this time – Sold our home, signed a contract on a new home build, lost my dad, moved in with family for 6 months and then moved into our new home. Managing keeping the kids in their current schools which meant, commuting them to their old schools for 2 additional months. Lets add your typical family stress of raising a family, having a career, being a wife and friend, and whatever life came my way. Oh and how can I forget, dealing with some hormonal issues and the treatment was additional hormones.
Although, I was doing everything right, everything was going to so wrong with my weight. I had to focus more on my diet and make adjustments accordingly. I had to figure out how to manage my stress. Even though I had everything together and managing my stressful life, my body and mind was paying the price.
As I practice in managing my stress level, focusing on whole foods and HITT training, yoga, and practicing mindfulness. I love practicing Nidra and restorative yoga. Due to the hustle and bustle of life, attending a formal class is difficult but I found some great resources online. Slowly I am adding mindfulness into my daily routine. Slowly, the weight is coming back off. And when I say slow, I mean SSSLLLLLOOOOWWW!!!! I guess as one approaches their late 40’s, hormones is another battle to the fight against obesity.
For me managing obesity is about how I manage stress, getting enough sleep, and of course continue with healthy eating and exercise.
I am not perfect, I have failed many times, but I have to continue to focus on the “WHY” and the “WHAT”.
Please realize all this above is balanced with still enjoying good food, wine, and gourmet cheese but on occasion 🙂 Since I haven’t figured out how to drink more wine and lose weight.
Just remember, this is your journey and I can promise you will stumble but you must be ready with a plan on getting back up, reevaluate what is going on and make changes accordingly.